I am just one week away from the doctors appointment and the
future judgment on my knee. With the hour closing in I am actually letting go
of the anxiety and restlessness that seems to have dominated my life over the
past year. It has been an entire month since I last checked in here. During
this time I have initiated a thorough cleansing of my mind as well as my
degrading body. I needed new life and energy. It has been a month of
introspective, meditation and release under the guidance of a professional
healer, leading to a far healthier vision of my current life-situation. I seem
to have forgotten that the path of life is long and that every little detail
will fit in in the bigger picture in the end.
I have given in to life and lived it as best as I could. A
longed for and very much needed injection of good energy right in the vein
which slowly changed my state of mind in the right, positive direction. As a
direct consequence I decided to take the physical (and very mental) challenge to
go on a cleanse/ fast to purify and lighten my conscience by undergoing a
strict internal spring cleaning. Over
almost a month I am following a very strict – and not too far from my normal
vegetarian - diet-regime and fast while I dedicate myself to meditation,
stretching and yoga (to the very limited extent I am capable of) as well as my
other daily chores. I have done cleansing several times before and know more or
less what to expect , and I am glad to recognize the benefits and positive
influence treating my body well brings along.
This type of cleansing brings topics and ghosts hidden in
the sub conscience out in the open, free to be treated, accepted and released,
out of my system. The internal spring cleaning becomes a mental spring cleaning
too and I intend to benefit from it when the knee in a short while will be
recovering once again.
Spring is here. Apart from the very wintery snow the days
has slowly grown longer and the sun is warming you up around the heart, while
you shelter from the wind. People wear smiles more loosely and everything is
starting anew. I can hear the mountains calling me from the distance. I am
getting ready for an expected reencounter. Soon!?!
